When I Was Five

If life were like a mountain, did you, did you not fall?
I have missed you since I was five
And I don't recall your eyes
But your hands I do recall
And I know how you smelt when you were alive

You died
Like we're all gonna go someday
You died
I was five and I wish you'd stayed

They say you crossed a river to touch God's hand
But I did not understand where he lived
So I tried to write him letters - letters of demand
Saying "She's my sister - back you give her"

You died
Like we're all gonna go someday
You died
I was here and you went away

I didn't see you die, I didn't see your casket
Don't remember if I cried, but I never quite got past it
You're fragile like a bee, and skinny as a steeple
And all these memories - are they mine or other peoples?

When you died
Like we're all gonna go someday
I was five and I thought I could make you stay