When I was alive

[Verse 1]
Yeah
I know that I could never finish
My first thought
Before I start to write my first sentence
I used to care about these people
Now I start forgetting
My whole life
It starts to feel like a jail sentence
The only difference
I don't know when I'm getting out
Stuck inside these walls
Until I scream
For them to hear me out
Take me by the hand
And pull on me
Until you get me out
I'm halfway through
But now it seems like
Evеryone
Forgets me now

[Chorus]
No mattеr how many days
Passing by
I know that I will never feel
The same
That I used to
When I was alive
I've seen a lot faces in my life
But I know that I will never be the same way
That I was
When I was alive

[Verse 2]
Yeah
And now I really don't care
I've been sitting here
Really thinking 'bout the years
Really thinking 'bout the people I tried to help
You thought it was for something
Till they leave you by yourself
I'm still doing good
That's because I have to try
The only other option
That I have for me
Is to starve or die
Or end up inside of a jail
Sitting in a cell
Just because I couldn't pay the money
Oops
I couldn't tell
You probably wouldn't get the picture
If I tried to paint it
You'd probably tell me it was wrong of me
And try to stain it
I'm just trying to be honest with you
Don't tell me stop complaining
Just open up your fuckin' ears
And listen to what I'm saying
And hopefully the people
That this song is really about
Will understand that it's all love
And I just want a better route
'Cause unlike you
I was kicked the fuck up out my house
And forced to find a better grind
To put the lights on in my house

Yeah it sucks
But that's the truth of being a damn man
And half of that shit
Yall niggas wouldn't understand
Don't got luxury of sitting around everyday
Getting fucked up
And wasting time
It's a damn shame
Find a damn grind
Go and find your damn lane
Get the fuck up and try
To build your damn name
You know what's sad
Half of you motherfuckers got family
And people that love you
And a fucking mom and dad
And still out here
Making all these bad decisions
We can switch places
And see who's shoes
You want to live in
Yeah
And I can't tell you what the fuck is worse
Living out a fucked up life
Or living in the dirt
It's like shit
I don't really want to feel the hurt
So I wake up
Every single day
And try to make it work
Because I noticed
That the world around me
It is getting worse
I leave my legacy behind
And leave this universe

[Chorus]
No matter how many days
Passing by
I know that I will never feel
The same
That I used to
When I was alive
I've seen a lot faces in my life
But I know that I will never be the same way
That I was
When I was alive