When I Can’t Sleep

[Intro]
Sometimes it really just...
It just...
It just...
And for as much sense as that doesn't make, it makes sense to somebody

[Pre-Chorus]
I been thinking 'bout what life is
I had a taste of what love is
And I liked it
Then you lose it
Get used to it
This whole thing's so unusual
I've been losing my mind
Feel like I'm running out of time
Lately I've been hard to find
Mortified, mortified...

[Chorus 1]
I done made changes, I done turned pages, I done lost patience oooh
Wiped my tears and got my drip, precipitation oooh
Saw my future, here without you and went ape-shit oooh
You do me dirt but got the nerve to call me complacent oooh

[Verse 1]
Everyone talks and nobody listens
And somewhere between, facts are turning up missing
Miscommunication can change your position
And hatred and words come from lips you were kissing
Distance between me and joy been expanding
I watched it and reviewed the shit that has happened
Through heartbreak I guessed that I'd lost all my passion
For anything yet for some reason I'm laughing
Its funny to me
Its funny to see
That everything I thought that I always would love means nothing to me
Then I flip flop
And go from not caring enough to caring too much
And sharing too much to not sharing enough
Not caring enough and... (Caring enough and...)
Its repeats and I bury a nut
Deep in the throat of a woman that I don't give two fucks about
Thinking its healing but pulling my hair while my fist's full of her's and I'm fucking her mouth
Spendin' the night with someone I don't love and vanishin' before the sun can come out
Changin' the life of some shorty that loves me then breaking her heart and then kicking her out
Ooof yikes
Starin' in the mirror like "yo, this ain't life"
Ooof yikes
I know that I'm wrong but it feel so right... so alright

[Chorus 2]
I been in pieces, I felt defeated, it ain't no secret ooh
Though I don't want to, we just argue when we speakin' ooh
In the mirror, staring at him like "I can't speak to you"
And staring back like "You dont know me, watch who you speakin to"

[Verse 2]
On a weird search since I lost myself
Feeling off myself like I offed myself
Like I chalked myself, tryna talk myself
Out this view of me that I taught myself
As I walk myself... tryna feel the beat of my heart myself
And I haunt myself but I carry myself in a way just to hide it
I always make sure that I carry my wealth
There ain't a dollar that can fix yo trauma
There ain't a drip that can heal your aches
There ain't a place you can hope to escape to when the thing to escape's your brain
Seems like the days get longer and darker the more I think of brighter days
Tryna navigate though I can't see and there's nothing to light the way
Thinking "What if I died today? Would anyone cry today?"
From dreaming a nightmare to living a nightmare
I open my eyes today
Thinking "What if I died today? Would anyone cry today?"
From dreaming a nightmare to living a nightmare
I...

[Outro]
I've been thinking about what life is
Tryna find where my heart is
I don't like this
I lose it
I'm used to it
This whole thing's so unusual
I've been losing my mind
Feel like I'm running out of time
Lately I've been hard to find
I'm mortified, I'm mortified...