Whatever Happens, Happens

[Verse 1]
I came for the big name, I might move to Brisbane
Check my campaign, fly suit like Bruce Wayne
I think I need to invest in a gold chain
Feeling a drowsy since I drank a little purple rain
Been waiting for this moment for a long time
Shouts out to all my brothers who been here for the grind
Hearing about it through the grapevine
Meditate the flow, I gotta find peace of mind
I ain't perfect but i’m steady working
Took a break from rap cause lately I been soul searching
I ain't eat nothing all day, and now my stomach hurting
Life is a show, and they bout to close the curtain
Thought I’d have it figured out, but I’m still uncertain
I can’t let em get the best of me
Field trip to a museum, cause soon i’ll be making history
I know what I deserve your fake love don’t mean shit to me
Everything that’s happened actually shifted me
Into a better me, a better man in acquality
I’ve been feeling this way since 2015
Back when I was rapping about my dreams
I still rap about my dreams, life ain’t crazy as it seems
I’m still tryna figure out what this all means
It seems like everyone always mad at me
It feel like everybody wanna get back at me
I’m from the place where people switch up on you just like seasons
These things happen for a reason
My grandfather died, and I barely got to meet him
Barely got to greet him
He died two weeks after the first time I seen him
And my older brother died in a drive by
Ain’t seen em since I was like four or five
Hoping an end don’t come to my life
But with the way that I’m feeling inside
Too many nights where I’ve cried
To a dark place I’m never going back
Thinking that I’m going out like Mac
Looking at my reflection, what have I become?
Wonder if I’m worth it, wonder if I’m the perfect son
Wonder if all this would just end by a gun
Wonder how I’m killing tracks if I don’t even run
Wonder when living just stops being fun
Wonder if in your heart, if I’m still number one
But I never said I was perfect, never said I was good
Never said I was nice, never said I was hood
A year ago nobody wanna fuck with me
Now somebody gotta die if they touching me
We been going stupid, went and got a couple D’s
I say what I feel no subtlety
Spent the whole year looking for something I didn’t have
Should’ve spent all this time tryna get it back
Spending all this time looking for acknowledgement
Maybe I should’ve asking where my father went
Maybe I should quit with the sob stories
Ain’t no better than me in my category
I done lost a couple friends due to some frustration
All this because a lack of communication
All our problems could be solved with a short conversation
I’m tired of waiting,I’m tired of saying
I’m tired of saying these words fucking up my concentration
I’m never congregating, everything too complicated
Used to contemplate suicide
But i’d hate to see the people around me cry
Always feel like i’m letting them down
But it’s different if it’s the other way around
My momma worried bout my health
I just be living my life, with all the cards I was dealt
After a while they gon come and find ya
I’m the OG no need to remind ya
Put all of the past behind ya
And don’t let your mistakes define ya
This time I’m going out in high fashion
Thing ain’t been the same, so, whatever happens, happens

[Outr]
I hate rapping like that