What Was I To Do?

[Verse]
It's all up to me
Mama screaming, daddy leaving
How the fuck I'm s'posed to sleep?
Teenage me would cope with weed
Poke the bears but hope for peace
Sadly, no one opens peak
(Poke the bear but hope for peace)
(But sadly, no one opens peak)
My homie T lost his own life to his own hand, shit
I know I grieve but can you see I'm clearly meant to be a man?
I see the stands on live demand
Panning out there voices me
I'm smoking weed in school, shit
I'm panning out my choices, oh Lord
(Oh lord, oh lord, oh lord, oh lord)
Can't you save me from this?
I got hate in public
Why y'all really gotta hate or love it? (Person)
Shit, I'm shamed for coming
Shamed for touching
Shamed for being me in life
It's sad, but I know my bro will see the light
(Shit, I know my bro will see the light)
Yeah, what the fuck was I to dooo?