What If

What if I have terrible dream
What if I never fall asleep
What if my head gets real mean
Every fuck up on repeat
Counting sins instead of sheep
What if I just keep buying stuff
What if the tides keep rising up
What if the world’s finally had enough
What if all the news is right
What if it’s the end this time
What if I get lonely as hell
What if it’s weird if I talk to myself
What if reality starts to melt
What I scream for sweet relief
What if I fucking cray crazy
What if end up bitter and poor
What if I always wish I had more
What if I’m shot walking out my door
What if I’m constantly at war
With what I’m even doing this for
Can’t get out of this bed
But I can’t close my eyes
Living inside of this head it ain’t a real life
What if sometimes I wanna make the call
What if my brain’s become a free for all
What if I wanna splatter it on the walls
Jesus Christ well don't you think
I might just be the drama king ya
And what if happiness is a myth
And what if I don't even exist
But what if just maybe this is it
Think of all the life I’ll miss
Sittin’ around playing what if