What I Want

[Chorus]
I am done (Serious)
Smoking gun
We've lost it all
The love is gone
I am done
Smoking gun
We've lost it all
The love is gone

[Verse 1]
Smoke it down to the field
To try to pretend that I don't feel her
Her heart's still pushin' through my veins
So really what I gotta go here for?
Standing on the stage, askin' what I'm really here for, what I'm here for
Was it really just to feel tall?
After you left and I lost it all
Who do I call? Where do I run?
After the fall, the damage is done
And hell through my heart, except on my lungs
All for my help, the plasters, the fun
Thinkin' of not even livin' no more
Would I get through? I just wasn't sure
Whenever a tragedy hits, I think of our split
And realize it ain't toppin' it
'Cause when it was over, somethin' that died
The rivers are cried, the love that had lied
Nothin' can top how it kill me inside
Hopin' a bottle, drownin' alive
Ain't nothin' work, believe me, I tried
Picked up a pen and I started to write
Words help me breathe and commit back to life
But it's almost a year, still ain't feelin' right

[Bridge]
Still ain't feelin' right
You pass through my dreams
You said they were alright
Is it a sign? I don't know
Is this where we're supposed to go?
I don't know

[Chorus]
I am done (I am so gone)
Smoking gun (smoking so good)
We've lost it all (we lost it all)
The love is gone (love is so gone)
I am done (you know I'm gone)
Smoking gun (smoked it so good)
We've lost it all (lost it all)
The love is gone (is this what you want?)

[Verse 2]
The love, the pain
The summers, the rain
To fuck with my brain
Is that why you came?
When you parted my heart and had me insane
We claimin' some things we never should say
Those words pushed us so far away
To the point that I can't even stand you today
Fuck sleepin' at night, fuck makin' it right
You livin' a lie, and your lies ain't right
You tellin' me you hope I'm alright
Live in a lie so your truth feels right
No, not quite; your true fight
Not against me, not against us
Against the people you think that you trust
I thought I could help
I thought I could help make light of ourselves
Put our past on the shelves
But I finally see, you're the one who needs help

[Chorus]
I am done (I am so gone)
Smoking gun (smoking so good)
We've lost it all (we lost it all)
The love is gone (love is so gone)
I am done (I am so gone)
Smoking gun (smoking so good)
We've lost it all (lost it all)
The love is gone (this is what I want)
(Serious)