[Verse 1]
I know some tricks, he's good at trade
Isn't it strange how pedantic what we call romantic?
I make him feel strong, he makes me feel seen
What do we owe to the ether? What are we but creatures?
He thinks I'm a fraud, suspects I'm a cheat
He wants me guilty: but he wants me!
Then you start to haunt me
[Chorus]
I don't know how to love a man a little
I don't know how to make my feelings small
If I loved him once, that love remains a riddle
'Cause I don't know how to love a man a little
[Verse 2]
I thought he was dead, under the door
And I believed in the Other; the Squandering Lover
I crouched on the floor, beside the bed
And for the first time, I trusted
It was the last day I lusted...
But he was alive: how I wished he were dead!
Then he'd be safe from my crushing
Dispirited touching
[Chorus]
I don't know how to love a man a little
I don't know how to make my feelings small
If I loved him once, that love remains a riddle
'Cause I don't know how to love a man a little
And I don't know how to think in just one color
To separate and designate the wheel
Don't look to me if you seek the patient lover
'Cause I don't know how to think in just one color
[Verse 3]
I wanted them all, I wanted them each
Every man’s eye upon me - then you pressed in on me
If you are love, if you are good, teach me to behave as I should
Hang me to bleed on the dry wood
What shall I say? What can I do?
All that I am is known by You
Grant him peace, please, would You
[Bridge]
I cannot love just a vapor
You do not love only saints
I cannot love just a vapor
You do not love only saints
You do not love only saints
Only saints, only saints
[Chorus]
I don't know how to love a man a little
I don't know how to make my feelings small
If I loved him once, that love remains a riddle
'Cause I don't know how to love a man a little
And I don't know how to speak in just one color
To separate and designate the wheel
Don't look to me if you seek a patient lover
'Cause I don't know how to speak in just one color
I don't know how to love a man a little
I don't know how to make my feelings small
If I loved him once, that love remains a riddle
'Cause I don't know how to love a man a little
What Bendrix Read was written by Alanna Boudreau.