“What Am I Doing to Me?” is the debut single from Shoemaker’s debut EP, East Side. On June 21, 2018, the song premiered via Atwood Magazine. They described the single as:
…an intimate and anthemic cry full of pain, passion, and perseverance.
[Verse 1]
I try to go to bed early just about every night
Wanna stop my head from spinning but its too big a fight
I give myself up for love and I don't even try
Tell myself when it's dark just to run and hide
Count the stairs to my door till I am safe inside
I do everything I can sometimes not to cry
I hate that I lose my shit and I just don't know why
I hate that I can't even read my own mind
[Pre-Chorus]
I've been on fire
I can't help myself
Running on wires
Balancing over hell
Anxious dreams pushing me
Out of sleep
What am I doing to me?
What am I doing to me?
Oooh
[Chorus]
What am I doing?
What am I doing?
What am I doing to me?
What am I doing?
What am I doing?
What am I doing to me?
[Verse 2]
Wake up I'm shaking in panic sleeping all the time
Cracked my phone and I spilled another glass of wine
My friends keep telling me I should take my own advice
But I made my bed so that's where I gotta lie
[Pre-Chours]
I've been on fire
I can't help myself
Running on wires
Balancing over hell
Anxious dreams pushing me
Out of sleep
What am I doing to me?
What am I doing to me?
Oooh
[Chorus]
What am I doing?
What am I doing?
What am I doing to me?
What am I doing?
What am I doing?
What am I doing to me?
[Bridge]
Trying too hard, don't try enough
Don't know why can't get myself to give a fuck
I'm burning down, no I can't breathe
Can someone tell me
What am i doing to me?
Ooohhh
[Outro]
What am I doing?
What am I doing?
What am I doing to me?
I've been on fire
No I can't help myself
What am I doing?
What am I doing?
What am I doing to me?
What am I doing?
What am I doing?
What am I doing to me?
What Am I Doing to Me? was written by FLORIO & Anna Shoemaker.
What Am I Doing to Me? was produced by JT Daly.
Anna Shoemaker released What Am I Doing to Me? on Fri Jun 22 2018.