What Am I Doing There

I no longer know what's real anymore
In the back of my mind, I have opened the door
That leads to the past and the love we once shared
I keep asking myself, what am I doing there?

What am I doing there holding you tight?
Taking down your hair lying close by your side
Making believe that you still care
My new life is here, what am I doing there?

I don't get much rest with the secrets I keep
And I'm afraid that some night, oh, I'll talk in my sleep
How could I explain to the one lying here?
She's loving me now, what am I doing there?

What am I doing there holding you tight?
Taking down your hair lying close by your side
Making believe that you still care
My new life is here what am I doing there?

My new life is here, what am I doing there?