Weight of Water

[Hook]
What you want me to do?
I’m losin’ my mind, I’m runnin’ out of time
What you want me to do?
What you want me to do?
They always clip my wings every time I try to fly
What you want me to do?
What you want me to do?
Despite how hard I try, nothin’ ever goes right
What you want me to do?

[Verse 1]
I live between a rock and a hard place
This far from a lost fate
The weight of water is denser than what you all think
I’m just a regular nigga, despite what ya’ll say
These past months been so hard for me
My dreams are slippin' so far away
I wake up every morning hoping things are gon’ get better
But nah, there’s a demon on me and it seems that she won’t let up
Ha, yeah I said her
I’m royally convinced that if the devil had disciples
They don’t have to be a bitch in all religions
But I opened up the Bible just for comfort
And the first line I read said: “How long wilt thou […]”
I took that as a sign that this should be my final rhyme
By the time that someone hears this
I’ll still be tryin’ to decipher that shit

[Hook]

[Verse 2]
Lately smiles are few and far between
And I’ve been havin’ all these awkward dreams
I barely write ‘cause I ain’t inspired by anything
I wrote this inspired by my pain
So many things on my brain that’s creatin’ strain
Like for instance, I feel like my niggas don’t pull they weight
Or they afraid, they let life get in the way
Or they don’t understand what’s at stake
Or that we older and time just slippin’ away
The world is colder
Everyday the weight of water’s on my shoulders, it’s gettin’ denser
So many sins, I think I should repent some, but I ain’t though
Cause you can't grow believing everything you hear
Now what’s fucked up can be replaced with just blind faith
But then to mention that’s too easy
If God forgives, the devil don’t forget
And Tyler Perry can't save you from your mother’s skeletons
There’s just some things you gotta live with
I live with my decision that if hip-hop is the death of me
Then that’s just what it is
Sounds ignorant, but it makes perfect sense to me
Before I succeed being you, I’d rather fail just being me
And if I succumb to this pressure
Bury me with a snorkel
And say that I drowned
Under the weight of water

[Hook]