Wear and Tear

I don’t like to feel the wind
As it’s blowing on my skin
Cause I don’t fit it the way I want to
I can’t open up my mouth
Without the insults pouring out
That I swallowed down with a glass or two
Is this a weakness you can see
See you staring here at me
I might just take your grimace for disgust
Don’t you open up my mind
Don’t you take a look inside
I’m a person you don’t wanna have to trust

Do I look like I’m unhappy
Or did this old mask I wear
Make it through the wear and tear of lying
But I know the truth
I do not deserve this
Well at least they thought that long enough

What can I fit in these hands?
Will my parents understand
That I never meant to push them both away
As I sit at 4 AM
Wondering just what I am
I am scarеd of things that I could truly say
I’m a monster and a freak
As the cracks bеgin to leak
My mind makes murder of my memories
Climb a mountain of my sins
But I know I can’t begin
To surmount the obstacles in front of me

Do I look like I’m unhappy
Or did this old mask I wear
Make it through the wear and tear of lying
But I know the truth
I do not deserve this
Well at least they thought that long enough

I don’t wanna feel anything anymore
I don’t wanna eat anything anymore
I don’t wanna feel everything anymore
I don’t wanna wanna be dead anymore
I don’t wanna feel anything anymore
I don’t wanna eat anything anymore
I don’t wanna feel everything anymore
I don’t wanna wanna be dead anymore
I don’t wanna wanna be dead anymore
I don’t wanna be dead anymore

Do I look like I’m unhappy
Or did this old mask I wear
Make it through the wear and tear of lying
But I know the truth
I do not deserve this
Well at least they thought that long enough

Do I look like I’m unhappy
Or did this old mask I wear
Make it through the wear and tear of lying
But I know the truth
I do not deserve this
Well at least they thought that long enough