We’ll Never Know

Now mama itz been years since you departed from the planet
Or maybe you're still here and it's just
Hard to understand it
I remember I was angry that you left me
I was bitter
Had dreams I ain't accomplish that I felt that you ain't consider
What's worst is all the imagery you left
Me with to suffer
Just can't get over seeing you dying and coughing blood up
I touch ya, these doctors have no mercy
I'm aware, they only see a junkie takin up another bed
Although you was the one who used to
Make the ghetto smilе;
They only see an HIV infected ghеtto child
Somehow, I manage to keep living out my dreams
I took your genes to places our family's never seen
And you should see that Sheda girl I married she's a queen
Get on her nerves from time to time I know, that's just me;
Aunt Star and I don't speak as much as we should it hurts
But part of me's reminded of you when I look at her
What's worse is I got children that our family barely knows
Co's some of them so clique-ish they don't
Like me and it shows
And so I keep my distance
They invite me I don't show
I wish that it was different why they spite
I don't know
Could it be that I'm successful? Nobody thought I could
Apart from you that is and some friends from the hood
It's all good
Maybe one day, we'll see the love will show...
Maybe one day
We'll never know....