we dont even make music

Tryna get my footing back
Got stuck up in the pavement
My brain is bleeding black and
I can’t fix it I’m a train wreck
Caught a diagnoses
I can’t stop it without payment
Violent thoughts are plaguing me
To put it in laments

Picked a fight and lost it
I can only blame myself
Think I’m feeling hopeless
I just wish that I could tell
Life just met me swinging like a flooding hurricane
Can't even keep my focus from the mental lidocaine

I wanna get back to me
At least so I can see
If I’m doing the very thing that God knows I sure should be

Gonna try to make this right
Reset my black to white
Turn around and start making my way
Back to the light

Way back when
I wasn't always like this way back then
Know my words do more harm than I intend
It's funny I regret
The feelings that I let
Show what's inside my head
My ego's need a check

It's tired of talking
So exhausting
So many times
I let my mouth do the walking
Too many times that I couldn't feel this lie
So many times it wasn't real besides

I got that reckless broken heart of stone
You know I couldn't break it on my own
And if I truly wished to be alone
Then I would be gone from you

I got that reckless broken heart of stone
You know I couldn't break it on my own
And if I truly wish to be alone
Then I would gone from you

Been taking a big step back
Accounting for what I lack
Let it pile into a big stack
Now my psyches under attack

I’m finding new emotions
Can’t say I’m good to go yet
Tho I’m getting better when I spend time
In the moment

I wanna get back to me
At least so I can see
If I’m doing the very thing that God knows I sure should be

Gonna try to make this right
Reset my black to white
Turn around and start making my way
Back to the light