Watching Films to Forget I Exist

I would try and climb these walls
But I am scared
That there is barbed wire waiting at the top
I keep coming to these conclusions, that this is how to live
But it doesn’t help all the confusion
17 and no dreams break a leg, break a leg
Eyes on you
Make a move
Like the rest
Just as they do
They all make it look so easy, but it really isn’t
Now climb into your grave
Let’s hope you dug it deep, and not shallow
Like our expectations for you
Your just one more name on the list
Nothing new, nothing special
Raise your hand feel the blade
Fix a drink reminisce to when you could tolerate life
Till all hope bled, from your outlook
To the ones with the sun in their eyes
Good for you, your way of life I refrain
Nothing to you
Eyes on you
Make a move
Eyes on you
See it through
There’s no motivation to be perfect
There’s no motivation to be… like you
Severed from
My life
Nothing to prove
Nothing to lose but it all
Severed from my life
Nothing to prove
Lose it all
I’ve got to, pretend that life isn’t really happening
Lost it all
I need to, convince myself that I don’t exist
I could start dreaming, but how do I dream when I cannot sleep?
I could start wishing, but what do I wish for when I don’t know what I want?