Warren’s Song Pt. 28

The picture fades I hear infinite lullabies and as I age I become immune to goodbyes goodbye goodbye goodbye who needs all this sunshine I am staying inside my disdain magnified I've broken down who needs aspirations I have isolation everyone needs someone I've broken down who needs all this sunshine I am staying inside my disdain magnified I've broken down who needs aspirations I have isolation everyone needs someone I've broken down what are they still insinuating I can see and I can hear everything you and I always mourn the losses in this ugly one-sided war told in incomplete sentences that I should not come to my senses you and I are still forced to turn the cheek in this bullshit one sided war I spent a cold day in hell my final wishes heard all of the truth you tell silencing hurtful words the avarice comforts them until we all die alone and every now and then their true colors will be shown it's a work in progress solidifying my legacy a perfect losing record seems to be part of my destiny will you believe everything I said to you was a lie lying here left to die in the withering sunlight a man uncivilized the world is red and I am blue lying through my teeth to you you are too good to be true look at me I'm doing well kind of numb and underwhelmed maturity is overrated I don't need your honesty I need something desperately trying to hold on to something I never had I'm feeling bad and I'm looking worse continuous weight on my chest I've fallen short they're secretly poisoning me much like before today is another new page another notch in my old age I speak slowly lacking substance every path has some resistance pain is here and unrelenting life is not bought I'm just renting I promise to break my promise why do I need to be honest don't get tired of pretending please save me a spot in heaven love is not a perfect science let's sit and soak up the silence let's pretend that we are still strangers as usual I'm at a loss for words another day of listening to the laughs I am a dreamer still in love with dissonance an empty promise to everyone I've ever known I'm just a shell of a broken man with an exit wound who needs all this sunshine I am staying inside my disdain magnified I've broken down who needs aspirations I have isolation everyone needs someone I've broken down I'll play along if you will only let me I'm looking up to you looking down on me there's never been two sides to this story wearing a smile that never seems to fit me feeling it fade when the cracks are starting to show you'll never be the same ran out of breath chasing my dreams waited countless days to succeed still in mourning glued to the floor non stop silence heaven help me unneeded depleted deep seeded left for dead I'm still weathering the storm underneath all this artificial light waking up to the same old morning feels like fire in my eyes just short of breath get well soon your defense smothers you you're cool and calm collected deliver me from evil I can't take anymore soften the blow I'm wearing the riot gear but it's not for a war It's all for show ran out of breath chasing my dreams waited countless days to succeed still in mourning glued to the floor non stop silence heaven help me I am starving sharpen my teeth on vanity vultures always circling I have no plans of dying can't you wait your turn for your fortune to turn for the better or the worst how did I get to this place where everyone I see I hate I'll do whatever it takes profiting from my mistakes languishing again in broad daylight standing with a megaphone on a mountain all alone I'll try to keep the conversation light I wish I could blend into the scenery because I know I should love you anonymously if you know who I am you would want to disengage if I'm slightly out of view I can stay hidden and you can stay happy we were still reading the writing on the wall when we watched innocence die sincere and serene our expectations small our delusions amplified reality sets in and killed my promises and now we're just drifting through time I took a dive as I wandered once into that distant world you looked and smiled at me and you were beautiful long before my heart suffered from atrophy you came and rescued me from everyone I know and your heart overflows with diamonds and your face always outshines the sun now my happiness has only just begun I love you more than me I'll die a happy man everyone's envy is bursting at the seams they all just laugh at me as I reach for your hand and your heart overflows with diamonds and your face always outshines the sun my disease vanishing I found you I found you my despair not a care I found you I found you empty space is erased I found you I know there's something you need to tell me and this time I will let you love what's left of me if you could promise me you'll find me in the sky so I can spend eternity here by your side after a while you begin to believe that you are sorry and you are at peace I want to shelter you from this evil world my innocent girl have faith in me are you free from anguish now you were lost now you are found share this happy home with me now that you're here I'm not alone thinking of you you're so sincere I'm selfishly in love with you we are free from affliction a perfect combination please share your dark thoughts with me now that you're here I'm not alone thinking of you you're so sincere and I'm selfishly in love with you I wish I had the gift of saying all the right things but I'm just here taking up space but I'm not alone thinking of you because it's not easy letting you go you're free from my affection how did we lose connection we watched the moon drop into the sea then professed our love and filled in the blanks now I'm glad the dust is settling and we have every doubt out of the way now euphoria is here to annihilate my angst the woman of my shattered dreams she is welcome in my space I can bury sorrow deep in the beauty of her face melancholy came and went and my misery erased I hope that I go peacefully with you right by my side singing the songs you used to sing songs I could never write deep inside you'll know I'll see you again we may look different but I'll love you the same I know there's something need to tell me and this time I will let you love what's left of me if you could promise me you'll find me in the sky so I can spend eternity here by your side faithful I can sleep at night grateful for the chance to decide when everything seems to fall apart I stay faithful until we reunite grateful I run into the light when everyone seems to walk away I stay faithful even when I'm alone you remind me I should be grateful for the chance to decide I hope you look me in the eye and see me in a brand new light I would die to save your life I'm in debt to you living new life killing old memories with you so sweet and wise no one understands me like you do I know she fell in love with me it feels like an anomaly how do I deserve this blessing we grow younger everyday sweet dreams coursing through our veins we are over-romanticizing slowly but surely I am still spiraling down and you are spiraling with me dreams fall to pieces with someone like me around I will waste your time of need don't look back with regrets and never forget you had a choice you gave your heart to me every beat a new blessing I still rejoice from the first day I knew you would take my heart and give it back to me I heard you say that you don't know where to start ending endlessly just in case I'm not here ‪tomorrow‬ we should speak up and go toe to toe we'll alienate everyone we know from the first day I knew you would leave falling in and out of love is overrated and every word I say is cut and pasted I failed to make you smile this time I'm living in exile this time who are you gonna be next time you're saving me for the last time calling out your name sounds so outdated the pictures on the wall are old and faded shame on me shame on me shame on me shame on me please keep your voice to a whisper I can hear you just fine we are the stupidest creatures making all the angels cry all I wanted was to bore you to absolute tears and I'm so tired of living alone with my fear we are still obviously so miserable death is approaching our home and this time it's all for the better two infidels in love shunning the entire world and it's time to live inside our own little world we are still obviously so miserable death is approaching our home and this time it's all for the better there is a new day passed this locked door memories decay love lost in this war I was full of good intentions but what the fuck just happened here I'm still waiting for the lies to cease and hope darkness disappears you keep me somewhere close to hell as my enemy draws near what can I say to you to get the last word in my beliefs bother you because you love your sin you're wishing me the worst who is the one judging who is the one judging please keep your voice to a whisper I can hear you just fine and please never ask too soon we are the stupidest creatures making all the angels cry and asking for forgiveness all I wanted was just to bore you to absolute tears because I am tired of living alone with my own fear I failed to make you smile this time I'm living in exile this time who are you gonna be this time you're saving me for the last time falling in and out of love is overrated and every word I say is cut and pasted calling out your name sounds so outdated the pictures on the wall are old and faded I failed to make you smile this time I'm living in exile this time who are you gonna be this time you're saving me for the last time I was looking somebody and I found someone quite taken to violence you sing a bitter song just to drown out the sound of all the demons inside your head telling you what you want to is like standing in the sun too long sighing answering bored to tears I won't let you go can't hold on an optimist winding down my life hurts it's my turn to take a turn for the worst I'm still learning to feel sorry for myself I need to I need to I need to a bitter exchange of our words are better unsaid the dissension is so rehearsed the night falls silent all I need is a thicker skin I'll be fine a humble beginning or humble end you decide a rude awakening the dust is settling is that blood on you yours or mine it seems like you've made up your mind I'm looking through a small window of time I'm hovering around the blues and deep inside I know that you are so amused and all the conflicting stories lead me to the same conclusion that I am not content to remain anonymous I'm so careful to criticize every lie that you tend to plagiarize and all the conflicting stories lead me to the same conclusion that I'm not content to remain anonymous give me a chance to fuck up resting in the ever expanding sun I'll trade anything for that if you are happy that makes one of us give me a chance to fuck up resting in the ever expanding sun i'll trade anything for that if you are happy that makes one of us just for you I will keep every dark secret that you have ever told me in confidence is this love a miracle or would you consider it more or less a slight accident don't mind me I'll be fine I know that you are enjoying your guilt free confidence lines are blurred and the sky is grey I wonder where I fit in where the hell have you been you went missing again inspiration will come and go the opposite direction where the hell have you been will I see you again the beginning the end look for me in heaven I'm hovering around the blues and deep inside I know that you are still amused and all the conflicting stories lead me to the same conclusion that I'm not content to give you a half hearted smile and just walk away and this time I'll make it worthwhile and I'll kill the hidden ache hope you can bring yourself to love me like you did before don't look back with regret appreciate who you ignore it looks to me like I'm capable of falling in love every time but you're unwilling or unable to save me from the rising tide I hear everything you say here in my motionless state you kindly asked me to die you even apologized I wish you were still inside my mornings I miss you smiling without a warning my happiness depends on you it's not healthy but it's true my heart still weighs a thousand pounds where did you go I wish you were still inside my mornings why is everyone still in mourning get over it their sympathy came without a warning who gives a shit I'm self immolating it's an addiction my past is so full my future is empty now you lavish me with your attention you're worried sick my broken heart is a collaboration what's inside I'll never show you're hurting me you'll never know internal bleeding broken heart put together and torn apart running out of time falling out of place failing you one last time dying to be done running out of time running out of time running out of time my famous last words are the same as hers need to recover over and over trading your absence for mine the unbelievers are unkind the meaningless becomes available I'm trying to get closer to the buzz that is surrounding you everyone says it's so beautiful trading your absence for mine the unbelievers are unkind the meaningless becomes available I'm trying to get closer to the buzz that is surrounding you everyone says it's so beautiful I hope you have fun dying alone with your regret I'm the only one who's ever known how to forget am I the salt rubbed in your wounds will you forgive me someday soon I'm giving my condolences to you you still give me well deserved abandonment you still prove me guilty without the evidence go ahead and spin your version of the truth your desire for revenge is consuming you I don't want you to get used to me being gone because you may realize you didn't need me all along and I don't have a great ambition other than loving you just ignore the minor details they are nothing new two questions are we happy and is this the last day you'll ever see me every room is reminding me of everything I'm losing everyday has gone to waste there's one for you and none for me looking back at the signs of something beautiful developing every I state the obvious you say it is too much and too late nothing to show for this broken heart a narcissist is my counterpart if there's anything I might have learned you are all I would ever have whenever I see you moving on you look so happy that I'm gone if there's anything I might have learned you were all I would ever have you were all I would ever have you were all I would ever have wearing sadness like an overcoat suspiciously all alone rain still falls on sunny days it washes the smile from my face with every recovery I lose a little more of me how will I find peace of mind eluding every time disposable promises our catastrophe someone misplaced the answers that you gave to me squandering golden moments feeding your disease telling you what you wanna hear is like standing in the sun too long sighing answering bored to tears I won't let you go can't hold on I'm an arson and I'm on a bridge making friends transparent I came to tell you everything's okay but I just made a rare appearance I can see the heartbreak on your face I wish I could be as sad as you shame on me you smiled as said you goodbye what went through your heartless mind the price was paid you watched as I grew cold with age close the book it's our last page running out of time running out of time.‬‬