Warm Up Session

I was raised in a shitty place
Where the sun sets west of the cityscape
I slept in a bed that was never made
And used to dream about food on my dinner plate
No heater when the winter came
So cold blood wouldn't spill when I’d slit my veins
That was life and it didn't change
For nineteen years in my mind I was in a maze
I was trapped and I couldn't see a future
Only all the things that I wouldn’t be
I took a gamble and paid the price like a booking fee
It's hard to stay straight narrow in these crooked streets
I used to chill with this one chick
She had a big heart but her dad was a fuckwit
Me and her lived together in her mum's crib
A halfway house cause her mother was a junkie
I was fifteen and living on her couch
Grace if you can hear me then I'm thinking of you now (grace)
And you probably wonder why I'm not around
After everything, we went through I don't wanna let you down
Do you remember when she broke my heart
When I came to yours in the morning I was soaked in blood
I climbed through your window to your open arms
You packed me up a cone and you told me that you know it's hard
I'll pick you in my heart until my last breath
Cause you been there since the start your my last chance
And I hate that your face is the past tense
Hate even more in the present that we aren’t friends
But i’ll always have your back
Cause you the only one who said I'd fall into a trap
You told me that I’d more than just collapse
But I stayed ignorant and kept ignoring all the facts
But a lesson learned is an answer earned
Sometimes the questions earned so be careful first
I left school at an early age
With the hopes of a job and to earn a wage
Mum packed her stuff and she moved away
I had to figure out to close the book you have to turn the page
But my job didn't work out
And then I stopped looking cause I knew I'd get turned down
I was over waiting
And my motivation was gone all I wanted to was make her proud
The years to follow were the hardest
I went through a lot of shit got swallowed by the darkness
But I came out the other end
With the knowledge of a man whose died a hundred deaths
Through it all, I'm only left with a couple friends
But they’re my fam until the fucking end (the fucking end)