War With Myself

[Intro]
Suicide's out of the question, but sometimes you can't help but think about it

[Hook x2]
You got your hand on the gun; what you runnin’ from?
Just grab the trigger and pull; what you waitin’ for?
You got your hand on the gun; what you runnin’ from?
Just grab the trigger and pull; what you waitin’ for?

[Verse 1]
Check the news feeds and see what’s being seen among the masses
The latest bombing, murder, suicides, robberies, car crashes
Politics, unemployment, technological glitches
ASPCA commercials, and riches going to the richest
(A shame, ain’t it?) Darkness and pain, anguish
It’s all around us, and quite frankly I can’t stand it
It lies among the famous and does something dangerous
Impacts those below ‘em, they all think in vain – heinous?
Mayne, it’s almost impossible for me to bear
I try to fight with light and positivity in my air
But my mind is turning and closing and taking over my life
We eventually cave in to majorities, so why fight?

[Hook x2]
You got your hand on the gun; what you runnin’ from?
Just grab the trigger and pull; what you waitin’ for?
You got your hand on the gun; what you runnin’ from?
Just grab the trigger and pull; what you waitin’ for?

[Verse 2]
I’ve made too many mistakes for my peers to even be peers
And whoever comes across me, I only see something weird
Inside their eyes when they look at me, I see right through aesthetics
And the things they say to me when they step up is just pathetic
It may not be right to take your own hatred and reveal it
But the worst thing that you can do with me is simply conceal it
Go ahead, say it; I’m despicable like a minion
It’s just constant reassurance of my own fuckin’ opinion
But you play it off; okay, go ahead and play some good guys
I’ll co-exist and while I’m at it, tell you some pretty good lies
No one needs to see who I am; I’m good all on my own
And despite what I may yell, just leave me the fuck alone

[Hook x2]
You got your hand on the gun; what you runnin’ from?
Just grab the trigger and pull; what you waitin’ for?
You got your hand on the gun; what you runnin’ from?
Just grab the trigger and pull; what you waitin’ for?

[Verse 3]
At this point, I would accept peace in lieu of my sanity
I’m tired of trying to be the faith that I have in humanity
Why strive to be a being with any promising qualms and dreams
When you know you’re stuck in a world where failure is a common theme?
This life’s indeed a slow one, which indeed depicts the flow
But how could life be such a breeze if I am losing control?
If you leave me exposed to friends, strangers, and foes
It only takes a couple seconds ‘fore I’m ready to explode
…boom
It’s a shame to know I don’t come across love often
Maybe I’ll see it when I’m suited up inside a coffin…

[Hook x2]
You got your hand on the gun; what you runnin’ from?
Just grab the trigger and pull; what you waitin’ for?
You got your hand on the gun; what you runnin’ from?
Just grab the trigger and pull; what you waitin’ for?

[Outro]
No one may ever see it, no one may ever notice
I do a good job when it comes to trying not to show it
But I think it’s time I display it; put it on the shelf
I’m at war with myself; I’m at war with myself
And if you do accept me for all my flaws a-hefty
It makes no difference with any bit of the pain it gives me
I guess it’s better for me to have it and no one else
I’m at war with myself; I’m at war with myself