Waking Up (ONE TAKE)

Yeah
Always thinking bout' if I wasted all these years
Drinkin' liquor down till my brains almost clear
Couple drugs just to take away all these fears
I used to avoid this place but now I'm always here
Tiny violins, just another sad song that I've been writing cos I've got nothing to fall back on
The skill I still got but, passion's what I lack of
It's selfish cos I don't know what I have till that's gone
But I'll be honest I've been sick of this shit
Can't be cool unless I'm talkin' bout' a bitch in a crib
Can't rap shit about rappers because it is and it hit
And if it ain't a thousand multis and it ain't legit when you spit
These rappers stab each others back for their own riches and shit
And still act like they're all homies while they're digging it in
I used to feel this shit but I've been losing grip on it quick
Used to dream of where I am but now I never wish that I did
It's hard to get that logic, or maybe I'm the crazy one
Maybe I'm just smart enough to not play this game as much
Maybe it's a good thing that I ain't hit the top cos if I'm thinkin' this way now then what could happen if the fame erupts
Maybe I could be the one to change it up, but I guess these days respect doesn't pay enough
Too many people know it, not many wanna say it but
These are just the thoughts while I'm falling asleep or waking up

𝘐𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵?
𝘐 𝘨𝘰𝘵 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦

Yeah I smoke alotta weed but I guess it doesn't do too much
Bottle of booze these days doesn't produce a buzz
Could pop xans but got enough habits to start a new one up
(heh) Guess I'm just a stupid cunt, could worry bout' me but I'm always focused on some other stupid cunt
Got all this anger building up, that I don't really use enough
The anger that I got can nearly buy a gun and shoot someone
But, that ain't the case so I just try and ???? or somethin'
And me and my parents don't really talk much
Old friends hit me up thinkin' I'm on a Tour Bus
I do somethin' different then they say they miss the raw Skrub
While haters talk shit but in person they say it's all love
And expect somethin' if I Buzz in a bit
Yeah they probably make more money than I've done from this shit
They hate me when I'm nothin' but love me when there's somethin' to give
I thought It'd suck to be young, but growing up is a bitch
Like, even though I'm twenty now
I'm just too scared to grow up with nothing left around stuck inside a empty house
Guess It's why my head is down, Knuckles to the page like
It's just another day yeah, nothings really changed so I get on
Just so I can get by, lately I've been thinking I ain't really got my head right
Guess I'll wait for next time
And I ain't really sayin' much
Cos these are just my thought while I'm falling asleep or waking up