Wake me up in october

It’s not that I hate you
I just hate how these times have changed
Even if I saw you
I don't know what I would say

Cuz I'm just tired of talking
Everybody else just makes me tired
I was hoping I would give up
You told me not to give up
Then you lost yourself

[Outro]
You don't love me
You'll never love me

Yes I was
I did
I- I cheated
It's over now

It was a lie, it was all a lie
Support you (I know)
Love you (I know)
And- and look what you- what you've done to me

When I did it
You dig into my past
You dissect my life
You paint me as this monster
As- as someonе who could hurt people
Or could do terriblе things

But who
Is the monster here?
Really
Who?