Wah wah im complaining

Imma be honest
I wouldn’t mind it if i died tonight i need my silence
Carried by the angels wings damn i want my money back
Everything just piles on me so wheres my fucking plaque
I live to support can't really raise my self up
Selfish of me to want to test my own luck
Where my head go?
I think i misplaced it
Along with my ego, self esteem, and many faces
Straight face emoticon
That do not look like me
I was really bout to end it all in like a night
Jeez
I ain't really close wit god
I lost my jesus piece
Then i lost to the devil in a game of strip tease
I wanna rip my face off
I hope my next bitch like it
Wrap it in hello kitty and giblie icons on the package
Imma keep this all in
Till my body gives up
Ion really care no more happy birthday to me

You know what fuck the wishes
I pick myself apart like children of divorce dishes
Its like i lip synced to someone elses song and dance for the past 22 years and i just now seen my hands, woah
Man Im a fucking idiot
My mom don’t even know i tried to off my shit
Ridiculous
I couldn’t shed a tear man even if i tried
You could put those wires in my brain my eyes would still lie
I dont
Know how to show myself
My mask on
Sorry to every shawty who i promised they was the last one
I lied i wasn’t happy i haven't been happy in years
You could tell me that you loved me i’d reply with “ur weird”
I dont trust the only friends i got
I can never feel in place
The next girl im wit remove my mask so they can see my face
I dont even have respect for my blood except my grandma
My household, my uncle
Fuck the rest and fuck my pops
Happy birthday to me