ViVA LA ViDA.

[Chorus]
Losin homies when I'm not at home
I get lonely when I’m not alone
I feel I'm buildin but I'm not enough
The most hated everybody loves

[Verse 1]
I’m back to my old ways, ha
Livin my life like Coldplay
Bury my problems so nobody solve em, I halfway did it my own way
Freeze my heart, numb my pain, but it's still gon stay
When it thaw out, I break down
Never can tell when I'm gon break
CDG on my sleeve make it part of my needs when I see I'm not okay
Trials weigh on my mind, I ain't doin no time but I'm feelin like OJ
Too much weight on my rhymes, can't waste time tryna tell em that no way
I just know I can't go back, I been livin too fast, never let it all go away
And even if I could, I got too much on my mind just to leave it if I would
When I look into the mirror, I be dreamin, I see good, I see reasons not to hide, I see demons that I should
All the pluses come with questions, I been shaky lately
All this hidin, all this lyin low gon make me crazy
Got this chip up on my shoulder that I’m steady lookin over
Every slip-up feel like Hell, I can’t make it safety
Baby

[Chorus]
Losin homies when I'm not at home
I get lonely when I’m not alone
I feel I'm buildin but I'm not enough
The most hated everybody love
And I can't beat these voices in my head tellin me I’m not enough yet
Drummin on my chest, I can only pray I'm up next
Ohhhhh
Ohhhhh
Is this the life?

[Verse 2]
Naw it can't be
Runnin from the same old issues
Got my hand on trigger like a Hitman be
Tryna beat depression but the pit ran deep
Run up commas, slip back east
Tryna find a smile out a pitch black mood
Workin hard, can't switch back, never let a mismatch in between me and my food
Who is y'all dudes?
Why does everyone get an opinion?
What do y'all do?
Why does criticism have me trippin?
What about you?
Have you ever lost enough to question if you did it all for nothin, if it crumbles, it was somethin, that's just life

[Chorus]
Losin homies when I'm not at home
I get lonely when I'm not alone
I feel I'm buildin but I'm not enough
The most hated everybody love
And I can't beat these voices in my head tellin me I'm not enough yet
Drummin on my chest, I can only pray I'm up next
Ohhhhh
Ohhhhh
Is this the life?

[Is this the life I said I want, I try to hide, I can't
Inside my mind, I'm colder now, I try to hide, I can't]