Visitation Dreams

Hearing about Will made me wonder
Am I where I want to be in my life?
Am I being a good wife?
How do I fight these thoughts?
They’re on repeat like another voice nagging me
Like another weight
How I wish that I was free

Is there anyone?
Is there anyone out there feeling like a token or a puppet on a string?
Is there anyone?
Is there anyone out there feeling like you’re nothing or your thoughts aren’t offering?
Don’t you ever tell yourself that you are anything but worth it
Fuck

My friends who are so sad
Not seeing potential in the lives that they could have
And if I could I’d heal the rest
At least that’s what I say so I can sleep in my bed
And I feel selfish just wanting them to stay
Without offering my help every single second of every day

Is there anyone?
Is there anyone out there feeling like a token or a puppet on a string?
Is there anyone?
Is there anyone out there feeling like you’re nothing or your thoughts aren’t offering?

I keep having dreams my dead friends are alive again
And I’m crying in my kitchen
Jake and Andy seemed so real
And I couldn’t comprehend that they weren’t really here
Or maybe I was just weak and just let myself believe
(Please don’t go)
It was easier ignoring the truth
When I wake I wish that I could forget forever
(Please don’t go)
I was happier in my dreams
To tell you the truth
I was happier in my dreams
To tell you the truth

Is there anyone?
Is there anyone out there feeling like a token or a puppet on a string?
Is there anyone?
Is there anyone out there feeling like you’re nothing or your thoughts aren’t offering?
Learning forgiveness is starting again