Violence Within the Violin

V1:
Its hard to admit but I've got issues that are irking me/
But first heres some perspective of my life out here on Mercury/
My main supporters ain't from Dopeboyz or Rapzilla/
'cause my raps are more Macklemore than Mineo and Mac Miller/
And thats not a co-sign for Mack or diss to Min and Miller both/
Its more about the social aspect in my rap as an approach/
I found I had a passion for the broken and it stuck with me/
Not coming out through rapping for me just wasn't a luxury/
Words formed, I wrote songs and felt the Lord was honored/
But he didn't bless it how I expected that had me ponder/
So I figured, "I guess the world ain't ready yet"/
But when they start asking for Human Trafficking raps Im here already set/
Next thing you know Im seeing all these songs and poems/
Most the artists weren't established, but a few of them I know 'em/
And ya'll get recognition now for knowing?/
Man I wrote those bars years ago, this must be how it feels for Leonard Cohen/
A San Diego visionary like Im Dannu/
My platform wasn't large enough I started acting brand new/
And honestly in hindsight, I really think the fam knew/
A Dream Junkie showed me his poem and I tried to ban Ru/
From spitting that Trafficking piece that he created/
Like I had a monopoly on everything justice related/
I tasted and started to smell the fumes of that bitterness/
I was consumed by my bitterness/
The sooner I admitted it, the sooner I could fly again/
It shot me to my core I really considered retiring/
You can hear the violence within the violin/
Another rapper falling victim to entitlement/

HOOK:
Shameful when i'm looking back, painful from the memory/
Confusion it was sent to be my enemy (20/20)/
Shameful when I'm looking back, painful from the memory/
Community was sent to be my centerpiece (20/20)/
It never bothered me the growth of awareness/
Why was I bothered when they spoke I'm embarrassed (20/20)/
I never minded if other people said it/
In hindsight I was blinded because I wasn't getting any credit/

V2:
So there I was forced to step back and view myself/
I hated what I saw I can believe I'd loose myself/
In 2008 for me was the start of it/
Educated myself on the issue and grew a heart for it/
That same year, I put my art to it/
And wrote, "On Behalf of the Silenced" I just wanted to play my part in it/
Nothing was more important than building the movement/
And perfect timing 'cause that time my rhyming skills were improving/
And I can honestly say, the mission never left essential/
But that full time rapper grind is a killer when the rents due/
It adds a certain pressure that music was never meant to/
So without the bills this might've been something I never went through/
But no more excuses, I'm done with the scapegoats/
How dare I complain, my little place has got a gate code/
My heart crossed hand on a bible I'll say I'm grateful/
But its hard to show the darkest parts of me because I hate those/
Do you know how much it makes me boil/
When they progress the cause and I respond as if un-joyful/
Do you know how hard it is to admit/
That you've let your ego in but you pretend it don't exist/
Well im done with it I'm free from it/
Look back and I see from it/
Learn now how to flee from it/
May he summit and me plummet/
No more of "me" homie we've done it/
Shout to every artist out who's ever reaped from it/
I celebrate your work we've got the same assignment/
In the same gang, same goal, maybe different environment/
I embrace the violence within the violin/
Never again will be a victim of entitlement/

HOOK:
Shameful when i'm looking back, painful from the memory/
Confusion it was sent to be my enemy (20/20)/
Shameful when I'm looking back, painful from the memory/
Community was sent to be my centerpiece (20/20)/
It never bothered me the growth of awareness/
Why was I bothered when they spoke I'm embarrassed (20/20)/
I think I minded that your way was accepted/
My hindsight has given new life and some proper perspective/