Using Again

I'm living low down and I am using again
I'm hating my name cause I am cursed like my kin
And if I should see you before I am condemned
I hope you're deceived by the webs that I spin

I wish I was who I appear
'Cause I despise the man in the mirror

Lost deep inside of my dirty old soul
Some starry-eyed boy never taught self control
The cost of my living was more than I planned
So I held a needle like a gun in my hand

And I wish I was who I appear
Cause I despise the man in the mirror

The memories I've got torture my head
And I don't know God but I heard he was dead
And if I am wrong in judgement I stand
I will not repent cause I don't give a damn
You can send me to Hell with the rest of my friends

And I wish I was who I appear
Cause I despise the man in the mirror

I'm living low down and I am using again