Used To Be

[Verse]
I’m not really coping
Am I just broken?
I can’t fucking focus
All these people are like locusts
Fucking vultures
I’m just tryna be the man I’m supposed to be
But demons get a hold of me
Wishing it was O for me
But I’m a coward and I wouldn’t do it myself
So I allow it to bottle up inside me
I know I shouldn’t
It’s not good for my health
I stopped going to my psych because I didn’t wanna inconvenience anybody else
Didn’t learn how to drive
‘Cause my father left when I was 18 and my mother couldn’t take care of herself
Now I’m 23 and I’m losing me to this person people want me to be
This is just me speaking honestly
This may not be how I want it to be
But this is how it’s gotta be

[Chorus]
I'm out here looking for myself
'Cause lately I've been feeling like someone else
But I'm too proud to call out for help
Take a look at me
And see that I've already paid my fees
I'm not the man that I used to be

[Bridge]
I feel like I don't know where I'm going
But I know where I wanna be
I can see the vision clearly
But it's just a matter of the feat
So I gotta keep moving
Keep grinding
Everything will happen in good timing
But one thing's for sure
I'm not the man I used to be

[Chorus]
I'm out here looking for myself
'Cause lately I've been feeling like someone else
But I'm too proud to call out for help
Take a look at me
And see that I've already paid my fees
I'm not the man that I used to be