Upper Hand

[Verse]
Checked out of reality
Left town still a slave to the gravity with
No friends to be proud of me
When I bid farewell to the man I don't know how to be

Leave me tongue-tied 'til there's no one else around
On the outside looking down

[Chorus]
'Cause expectations are the death of making plans
Not my nature, but I'll try the best I can
And I'll be waiting 'til I have the upper hand
How long, how long?
I thought that explanations were the way to break loose ends
Lost all patience, but I hope you understand
I'll be waiting 'til I have the upper hand
How long, how long?

[Verse]
And I'm better off losing my grip 'til the world says I'm worthy
But if I gotta keep living like this I'm gonna die when I'm thirty
But if it's not that bad, I won't treat it like a problem
When it's the best I've had, I've got no reason to solve 'em
I guess that much is plain to see

Out of orbit and revolving around you
Living in third person view

[Chorus]
'Cause expectations are the death of making plans
Not my nature, but I'll try the best I can
And I'll be waiting 'til I have the upper hand
How long, how long?
I thought that explanations were the way to break loose ends
Lost all patience, but I hope you understand
I'll be waiting 'til I have the upper hand
How long, how long?

[Bridge]
I know I'm one to make way too much out of nothing
And maybe I'm afraid, I'll admit, either one
But I just wanna feel like I'm fiending for something
Whether it's forgiveness, or closure, or blood

(...)

[Outro]
Expectations are the reason we're both wrong
You're not perfect, but I guess I'll play along
And I'll be waiting even if it takes me all
Night long, night long