Up To

[Intro]
Baker got the keys, boy

[Chorus]
What am I up to?
You never checked on me when I was down, baby fuck you
You get love too, she wanna know where I been, wanna what I’ve gone through
Love make me nauseous, there isn’t a girl that I’ve met that don’t make me feel cautious
Love is too painful, I can’t be sittin' here questioning if shawty faithful

[Post-Chorus]
Girl you told me you loved me so why did you leave?
Kept me warm in the night till you left me freeze
Call me a lie but don’t call me a cheat
You did that in your own, bitch, it ain’t hard to see
I been depressed since you did that to me
(I been depressed since you did that to me)
Harder than said when they tell me to breathe

[Verse 1]
What have I come to?
I wasn’t always addicted to drugs
I used to pop me a pill when I want
Now I can’t sleep since I quit smoking blunt
Life ain’t a blessing
After my daddy left I couldn’t help but stop stressing
Ain’t tryna press him
But I think the problems I have need a little addressing
Shits been tough for me since I left you
Girl don’t fuck with me like I wrecked you
Shits been tough for me since my dad left
Brands don’t fuck with me for my bad rep
I been runnin' from my demons lately
Fuck the money, it won’t help me face these
Suicide just can’t help but plague me
Every night I need help, come save me

[Chorus]
What am I up to?
You never checked on me when I was down, baby fuck you
You get love too, she wanna know where I been, wanna what I’ve gone through
Love make me nauseous, there isn’t a girl that I’ve met that don’t make me feel cautious
Love is too painful, I can’t be sittin' here questioning if shawty faithful

[Post-Chorus]
Girl you told me you loved me so why did you leave?
Kept me warm in the night till you left me freeze
Call me a lie but don’t call me a cheat
You did that in your own, bitch, it ain’t hard to see
I been depressed since you did that to me
(I been depressed since you did that to me)
Harder than said when they tell me to breathe

[Verse 2]
I need patience, I done tried meditation
This is deeper, think I need medication
Where you been? I think they want explanations
Fuck your angels I’m the devils creation
Went to a psych ward, I was not psyched for it
Fuck all these white boards they just make my eyes sore
They made me listen and gave me prescriptions
I had listen to all their descriptions
I just wanna sleep (Oh)
Baby Let me be (Oh)
I don’t wanna speak (I don’t wanna speak)
Let me be in peace
I just wanna die, life is such a lie
Drinking more codeine, I ain’t tryna cry
Please don’t phone I will not reply

[Chorus]
What am I up to?
You never checked on me when I was down, baby fuck you
You get love too, she wanna know where I been, wanna what I’ve gone through
Love make me nauseous, there isn’t a girl that I’ve met that don’t make me feel cautious
Love is too painful, I can’t be sittin' here questioning if shawty faithful

[Post-Chorus]
Girl you told me you loved me so why did you leave?
Kept me warm in the night till you left me freeze
Call me a lie but don’t call me a cheat
You did that in your own, bitch, it ain’t hard to see
I been depressed since you did that to me
(I been depressed since you did that to me)
Harder than said when they tell me to breathe