Unwell

I'm no better
Than to run away now
I am stronger
Than I've ever felt before
From those I wish were more

I am harder
On the outside than the in
But my skin is growing thin
For my betterment I sin

And my heart's beating out of my chest
At the thought of someone only as well
But should I change all of my thoughts on happy endings?
Or will I keep my convictions or else?
Or else?

I will murder
Myself before the pain
I tried harder
Just to keep myself in check
The emotions I object

I was smarter
Than to give away the key
To the people you could be
And through this fog it's hard to see

And my thoughts screaming out of my head
Make me think that my heart can be well
Can people change enough to find a happy ending?
Could my ambitions keep me unwell
Unwell
Unwell
Unwell