​until my heart stops beating

I don't wanna see the sun
I got toxins in my lungs
I got tabs up on my tongue
Four grams rolled inside the blunt
Medicine inside my cup
I can't love, I fuck it up
Got me fiending for your touch
Will I ever be enough?

Until my heart stops beating
I'ma be this way
I don't know my purpose
All I know is pain
Wake up in the evening
Every day's the same
Can't escape the cycle
It will never change

Ugh, I don't wanna speak
I'm busy fighting feelings
Laying on my bed
Staring at the ceiling
No hope inside my heart
It feels like I'm sinking
Aiming for the stars
When I'm awake I'm dreaming

When I'm awake I'm dreaming
You're the one I'm seeing
In my head like all the time
Try to get you off my mind

Always overthinking
Always high for nothing
I love feeling nothing
Ketamine, I'm frozen

You play me like a game
Fucking with my emotions
Acting like you care
But I know that you fronting
You lie right to my face
So now our trust is broken
Hope you miss me
Going missing, you won't see me again

You won't see me again
Diving off the deep end
Every day I'm drowning
In this life, I'm locked in
There's no other option
Yeah, this do or die
I'm aiming for the sky
I'm learning how to fly

Aiming for the sky
I'm learning how to fly
Far away from everyone
And everything

Until my heart stops beating
I'ma be this way
I don't know my purpose
All I know is pain
Wake up in the evening
Every day's the same
Can't escape the cycle
It will never change

Ugh, I don't wanna speak
I'm busy fighting feelings
Laying on my bed
Staring at the ceiling
No hope inside my heart
It feels like I'm sinking
Still aiming for the stars
When I'm awake I'm dreaming

I don't wanna see the sun
I got toxins in my lungs
I got tabs up on my tongue
Four grams rolled inside the blunt
Medicine inside my cup
I can't love, I fuck it up
Got me fiending for your touch
Will I ever be enough?