Unkind

Loving him was easy
But I didn’t treat him right
While loving me is reckless
Cause I know I am unkind

As unfamiliar hands caress
A portion of my skin
It got me missing him
It got me wishing he’s the one to hold me

Closer to his chest
I’d stare as he’d sleep in
And the safety just kicks in
What I’d give to feel again

I love him, I love him, I love him, I love him I do
But I keep all these words left unspoken, cause I am not one to lose
But I want him, I crave him, I need him, it’s a game, it’s a ruse
And I know I will never deserve him, might as well cut him loose

And yеs, I will never desеrve him (I ain’t got riches to spend or provide)
Cause everyone knows I am unkind (everybody knows I am juvenile)
And everyone knows he is perfect (and I feel pathetic when he’s on my mind)
While I ain’t got nothing in life (how am I loveless yet lovesick tonight?)

But I love him, I love him, I love him, I love him I do
And I keep all these words left unspoken, cause I am not one to lose
But I want him, I crave him, I need him, it’s a game, it’s a ruse
And I know I will never deserve him, might as well cut him loose

Oh I love him, I love him, I love him, I love him I do
And I wish I had said what I hadn’t, but my pride ran aloof
And I wonder if things would be different if I had made a move
Now I am stuck drying tears off the pavement after he bid adieu (after he set me loose)

Yeah I know I am unkind to myself and I know
He is better off with someone else, and it shows
And it’s selfish of me to not let him go

Cause now I am not the one that he brings to his house
After I wrecked the dreams that we’d ramble about
And I know, and I know, and I know that I love him, oh I love him so

If had the courage to face and not avoid
I’d tell him I loved him, I wish I had the choice
I wanted to hold him, but I just acted coy
If I hadn’t hurt him, then I’d still be his boy