Unforgivable

[Intro: Melanie Safke]
Say I’ve got devil, some say I got an angel
But I'm just too in trouble
I don't think I'm in danger, no I'm not in danger
No, I know I'm not in danger

[Verse 1: Theory Hazit]
Ain’t been to church in about a year
All my old friends are outta here
Is it too late for praying now?
Was it too much for you to stay around?
Is your mercy and grace running out?
Was it because my lust was unannounced?
I see, you think I abandoned my family
So much for you granting me amnesty
I’m still here
Apparently everybody feels weird
Apparently it seems like I’m not allowed to feel fear
You’re wrong if you believing your grieving doesn’t bother me
I deserve your hate mail that you sent on Father’s Day
Calling me deadbeat while rhyming over dead beats
Your words are coded and turn pillows on top of bed sheets
Dreamers never thrive off sleeping
And the Christian audience condemns non-believers, Jesus
Save me for waving at your followers
Foolishness is bliss, ignorance is audible
I was cordially invited to take a seat at the table
To discuss variations of how no sin was greater
I raised my hand and said I was guilty
And then immediately they went numb
Nobody feels me
Too sick for the healer to heal me
The four walls of the last days are closing in and I’m filthy

[Hook: Theory Hazit and India Lee]
Yeah, I got this voice in my head that goes
Yes you are unforgiven
Yeah, I got this voice in my head that go, go
Yes you are unforgiven

[Verse 2: Theory Hazit]
Your honor, ladies and gentlemen of the jury
Somewhere along the way my vision had gotten blurry
I’m guilty been looking for lust through other women
And acceptance in this music profession I’m trying to fit in
Secular rappers claim though Theory Hazit
It’s what I’m hearing amongst peers it’s most tragic
My momma ask me if I had a reprobated mind yet
I told her I was underground I ain’t been signed yet
Nah, I repent of culpability
And take full responsibility of my iniquities
I admit I quit, I gave up early
I be the first to keep a rib of myself
I’m unworthy of the air I breathe
I’m no different from a Pharisee
It’s not fair to see
But I look for therapy, your honor
Ladies and gentlemen of the jury your rejection is obvious
Thanks for reassuring me

[Hook: Theory Hazit and India Lee]
I got a voice in my head that go
Yes you are unforgiven

[Outro: Iyanla Vanzant, Jay Williams and Nathanial]

[Iyanla Vanzant]: You can do this

[Jay Williams]: Own your emptiness, brother. You wake up every morning, you feel empty

[Iyanla]: When I think about my children. Repeat that

[Nathanial]: When I think about my children I feel, I feel helpless. I’m full of shame and guilt. I’m bitter, you know

[Iyanla]: Let me talk to you as a woman, as a single mother. I gave you the most intimate part of who I am as a woman. I opened up my soul up to you when I allowed to you lay with me...

And I trusted you. I trusted that you would be there. I trusted that you were the promise that my daddy never gave me. I trusted you with my soul, with my body, with my being. I trusted you and you left me. And not only did you leave me but you left me here with this child. Just like you don’t know who you are, I don’t know who I am. And now I’ve got a child and I’ve got to figure it out. And you. You, tell me that you get to go off and figure it out and have other women? And I’m here with your child. I don’t get to go figure it out. That’s where she is

[Nathanial]: All of them though?

[Iyanla]: Yes

[Nathanial]: Even the ones we weren’t in a relationship with?

[Iyanla]: Doesn’t matter. You were my promise. I opened myself to you. I gave you all of who I am. And you get to go off and find yourself with other women and I’m left here with your child. What do you say to her? Say it to me. Two words. Two words

[Nathanial and Iyanla]: Forgive me