UNFAIR

Ever since I was a kid, I felt the need to forget and forgive
Silver spoon to my lip, but trying to find where my happiness lived
And it was okay for a while but worsened with time and I started to trip
I usually keep to myself, but fuck it I’m just gonna tell you a bi-i-it
I failed to articulate shit
Like going out make me anxious
Everyone asking me bout school, I wanna say fuck I hate it
Wanna stay home and play sick
But mom gon tell I’m faking
Either the clock hand got real slow or I got damn impatient
I went to school for an education only learned that we lived in a fucked up nation
Where people get judged for the person they love or the skin color on their faces
And there’s like a million cases, can’t imagine what everyone facing
If this what it’s gonna be like for the rest of my life let me off at the next station
I’m sitting in class and my heart is racing
I can’t breathe I’m in need of some respiration
When you don’t feel no purpose in life, you can’t set no goals cause there’s no destination
I want them to hear what i’m saying
But even with hoping and praying
I know that I cannot change shit
And I feel my body decaying
Drown out my thoughts with a playlist
Drop my dreams of the A-list, uh
Cause even if I were famous, worry I’d still be aimless, uh
Now all that I see is grayness, turn up my color-grade or sum’
Somebody come save me I’m held captive in my cranium

I feel no love, do more drugs, anything to feel a buzz
I drop my books for some woods cause I don’t really give a fuck
And I feel pain I can’t explain but tell me who’s gon listen up
I wear long sleeves so you won’t see the way I’m slowly giving up
And I didn’t make it to school today
Cause I only got to the parking lot
I’m thinking bout taking my-
At least someone’ll get a new parking spot
I used to get sad in the night
Now it’s happening whether it’s dark or not
I fucking hate my mind, but I don’t want my heart to stop