Undesirable

I woke midday in a sweat, the oven of my bed
As the sun beats its arms against my walls
My throat cracks to release a feeble sigh
Straining against desire, my fortune exhausts

I burn at the promise of solace
Relief passes me by

Swallowed by treacherous obsession
To know no other lives

I’ve hardly figured it out
I’m just a fixture of my own wrongdoing
What malice must i sustain?

Now and forever
Undesirable