Undertow

If I showed you all of the flaws that I’ve hidden deep
Would you love me still or just want to break free?
Far from my sickness and my disease
Would I be wretched? Or maybe redemption is
Within my grasp? Our hands together clasped
So selfishly I ask

Please don’t let me go
God only knows
I’m dying alone
I’m holding on to my trauma like
Stone, grip worn to bone
It drags me below
I lost myself in the undertow

Focused on my failures (hidden deep)
Hammering the nails (wanna break free)
Craft my own casket with miseries past
When can I break free?
Be who you see in me

Please don’t let me go
God only knows
I’m dying alone
I’m holding on to my trauma like
Stone, grip worn to bone
It drags me below
Will I stay bound to the sorrow I’ve sown?
Savor the woe
Til everyone’s gone?
I saw your hand in the blue, my heart slowed
Could it be so?
You won’t let go?

Revealing every piece
I laid bare to you all of my ugliness, the shame, and the grief
How it flees swiftly, fleeting, happiness makes way for the misery

I think I’ll always be a little incomplete
But I’m stitching gaps
And you help me with the seams

Please don’t let me go
God only knows
I’m dying alone
I’m holding on to my trauma like
Stone, grip worn to bone
It drags me below
I lost myself in the undertow
No
God only knows
I’m dying to grow
To drop the stone and hold on to the
Glow, to warm my bones
Ignite and awoke
So I could shine through this undertow

I saw your hand in the blue my heart slowed
And so I know
That I can shine through this undertow