Two Steps Back

[Intro]
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[Verse 1]
All I got is honour and pride
A few pills and a lot on my mind
A few problems bottled inside
Me? I feel hollow inside
Come walk with me
Yeah, just come follow behind
'Cause the way I feel right now
Not even a clock could stop my time
My time is now
'cause I fill my pen with heart
And write it down
I let that pain flow, no game show
But I wipe it out
Feel my pain, gotta write it down
[?] hype and the sound of the mic and the crowd
So ain't no way you're gonna tie me down
Get lost in [?]
We can escape no matter what's on your mind
Go and find a place I ain't gone in my life
While I'm wide awake [?] sky
Say I wanna vibe out when I'm lost in my mind
But I can't, someone give me a [?]
Or a time and place I can write back
'Cause every night and day I'm seeing life collapse

[Chorus]
I don’t wanna watch another day go by
So I stay so high thinking, 'I wanna escape this'
Praying that this rapper shit with change my life
Can’t take my time if I really wanna make it
And I do, and no one's gonna get in my way
Some dudes out there think I’ve changed, I’m still the same that I’ve been from day
I ain't changed, man, I’m just on my grind
Following my game plan, utilising time

[Verse 2]
Wreck those beats and I get so deep
Just writing my mind when I pen those sheets
Creative mind, I’m awake all night
With a page [?] can’t get no sleep
Yeah, I fought nights
Feel like I ain’t slept in a fortnight
Days ain’t long enough, need more time
As I take each breath and I walk by
I see these demons and they
Whispering in my ears still
I hear these demons and they
Just won’t disappear still
They wanna go deep inside
My brain's lost and it ain’t easy to find
Or maybe I’m just sleep-deprived
Thinking other people can read my mind
I feel separated
That’s why I’m medicated
Every day [?]
Pen to the paper, I’m dedicated
Wondering if I’ll ever make it
I'ma just keep [?] this music
It-it don’t matter if I do
'Cause it’s so therapeutic

[Chorus]
I don’t wanna watch another day go by
So I stay so high thinking, 'I wanna escape this'
Praying that this rapper shit with change my life
Can’t take my time if I really wanna make it
And I do, and no one's gonna get in my way
Some dudes out there think I’ve changed, I’m still the same that I’ve been from day
I ain't changed, man, I’m just on my grind
Following my game plan, utilising time

[Verse 3]
At fourteen, I was a weed head
Fifteen is when I hit speed
At sixteen, I started spitting these
Sixteens to relieve stress
At seventeen, I need meds
I’ve come so far
[?] I’m starting to think 'was I ever clean?'
[?] last two years was a dream, yep
I’ve been a lean head
Still tryna get clean, yep
Well, at least I admitted it clean
I call this living my dreams
But maybe I just need to dream less
'Cause each morning and each breath
I [?] sleep less
I think I need [?]
But I don’t wanna see death
So I gotta keep on walking
But I take precaution with each step
I’m in deep, yep
When I think back, so many regrets
[?] I put myself in a situation
Not thinking I'd get this depressed
Have I had enough?
Should I just go pack it up?
Fuck your past, gotta use the present
A gift for the future, wrap it up
That’s just what that rapping does
I got the passion and love
But I’m good with words, not numbers
And shit ain’t adding up

[Chorus]
I don’t wanna watch another day go by
So I stay so high thinking, 'I wanna escape this'
Praying that this rapper shit with change my life
Can’t take my time if I really wanna make it
And I do, and no one's gonna get in my way
Some dudes out there think I’ve changed, I’m still the same that I’ve been from day
I ain't changed, man, I’m just on my grind
Following my game plan, utilising time