Twenty-Six

Even though I’m 26 inside my brain
Just the thought of 26 is quite insane
Thinking ‘bout my 26 is like I’m
Going in the basement
La la la

I don’t remember 26, maybe 27
It’s all the memories getting mixed up in every second
Well since the first it’s been a while, I’m guessing that’s expected
I don’t review it every night, that’s why I kept the records

I keep them hidden in places where only I can find them
Somewhere safe where all my great experiences can find asylum
Somewhere dark where all the awkward parts can lie in silence
Somewhere secret where the awful get their private island

I’m 26 but I don’t wanna turn 27
I’m hesitant to take a step in that direction
And every time I get an opportunity I drop it
Like a Pokemon evolving I’m hitting B and I stop it
Why?

Is it because I’m trying to fight it
Or because I look upon my future prospects with a prior bias?
I’m like a Midas in reverse, everything that touches me is turned to
Items in my verse while I search for gold lying in a hearse

Even though I’m 26 inside my brain
Just the thought of 26 is quite insane
Thinking ‘bout my 26 is like I’m
Going in the basement
La la la

After leaving Taiwan, I ventured vast lands
Getting reeled into the glamor of the jazz hands
I wouldn’t say I should’ve never a part of it
The art I did was key to my ascension in the master plan

But I left behind a broken heart that didn’t quite deserve it
Thinking’ bout it now gives me plenty more than a light disturbance
To wipe the burden from my mind I’ll light a furnace on that time
To move forward and come to terms that I did hurt him

Took a job that never jibed with my anxiety
On the other hand I acted crass and lacked propriety
It didn’t last a mini gasp of air
Deflated, Alex started
Looking downward, good mornings became a scant affair

Dating every everyman who found their way to me
Was getting quickly prosaic, regardless, did it aimlessly
Perhaps ashamed I’d never find better without some love attached
Maybe someday I’ll be satisfied with what I have

Even though I’m 26 inside my brain
Just the thought of 26 is quite insane
Thinking ‘bout my 26 is like I’m
Going in the basement
La la la