Turnback

Take no shortcuts, there's no shortcuts
I knew from the first second that I'd fall in love
It was a lot on us
Left out what I needed to discuss, I'm just another fucked up-
I spent all of my trust, but I was hesitant to even start
Regret filled me to the brim, [?]
I wanna say there could be more to us
I wanted to take the easy way out

I should've waited
Waiting would've stranded
I'll ignore it, that's a habit
Always out in the back, distracted
Going off my tracks, I just wish you could believe me
But I can't even believe myself
I'm hesitant to say what I feel in my soul, I have to lock it away
I'm never late to the party, gauging how I do it hardly
This shit hits me in the back so sharply
When you spend your life alone you learn a distant truth
Grabbing onto anything, it always ends up choosing wrong
Take a second to think it over
Save yourself from the torture
Hurt yourself again, cause it's only what's familiar
[?]
Acceptance is something I still refuse to chose
[?]
I'd be lying if I said I didn't have a little fun
I'm left with nothing more to say
I'm always saying that I wish it was her, one day
I'll never book another single plan into place, it's too much to handle
Like a mouse I go and scramble

Transform me into an empty object
Teach me how to be truly heartless
I'll throw away being human at a seconds notice
Take my hand, there will be so many places to go with
After it, there will be throwing sticks and stones
Your love is so pure
I always miss you
You being happy is my one true wish