Turn It Down

When your nerves are shot
And you jump at every sound
And you know what it is
But you can't just turn it down
You ask for clarity
As you try to light a match
And your mind goes dark
Waiting for the flame to catch

You feel so strange
Like your head's up in the clouds
And you'd break your back
Just to hear her say out loud

"Oh it's okay
I know why you had to go away
And I hate you most of the time
But I'll try to forgive you anyway
Yes I'll try to forgive you anyway"

When the day drops in
And you're still on last night
You can tell yourself it's cool
But you know it ain't alright
Because you're looking for something
You know you'll never find
It happens every day
And you always change your mind

Like your mind's a thing
That you ever could control
And you watched me trip
Into every single hole

But hey, it's okay
You know why I had to go away
And you hate me most of the time
But you'll try to forgive me anyway
You'll try to forgive me anyway

Oh please just tell me
How to
'Cause I don't know how to be
On my own

Oh it's been keeping me up
And when I sleep you're in my dreams
And it's always really strange
And I don't know what it means
I hate myself because I know
Why it went wrong
And it breaks my heart
Like a beautiful, sad song

The kind you hear
When you think you've finally found
The way to block it all out
But you can't just turn it down

Oh baby, please say
"I know why you had to go away
And I hate you most of the time
But I'll try to forgive you anyway
Yes I'll try to forgive you anyway
Oh I'll try to forgive you today
I'll try to forgive you today"