​trying to figure out why im like this

[Intro]
Godlow on the track

[Verse 1]
I feel like I'm alone when among so many others
The chinks that wear me down have long since been uncovered
Insecure and anxious, overthinking so I suffer
Trying to relax without the strength that I can muster
I still feel alone whenever I'm at home
Put my troubles on a page so I can try to cope
Imprisoned by my mental state like inside an asylum
I'll be stuck behind these bars for the entire time I'm growing
The good lifе that I'm hoping
The girl that I have chosen
I pray that it will last and I will not bе broken open
But the tendencies I have they will lead to overdosing
Because love is a drug and everybody wants a dosage
I'm unpredictable, I don't know myself
I go from being confident to needing all the help that I can get
I keep my head up, look at what's ahead
Aiming for the stars, won't get them laying in my bed, so

[Verse 2]
Yeah, I been locked inside my room
Contemplating shit in every single thing I do
[?] susceptible to pain in every way
And I feel like I'm entrapped without any room to move
I get anxious when I think about stars and all the galaxies
And all the people living in the city [?]
Fathom all the possible outcomes coming after me
Think about our brains and it's obviously a masterpiece
Yeah, I can't be separated
I think it maybe stems from insecurities that I created
Always wanted love and acceptance, and to get it
I changed the way I was, and now I'm older, I regret it
I need to love myself so I can pass it onto others
But it's hard when your brain is where you live without a summer
I wish for independence and relationships to heal
I'm always left alone but I'm just venting how I feel