Trying The Hardest Cypher

[Intro: J_c0b_Raps]
Look, I was thinking that this would be a good idea 'cause I'm sure there's people who need to vent their feelings
So, that's what this cypher is here for
I'll start

[Verse 1: J_c0b_Raps]
Look, I've been struggling
In a good relationship, but life has been puzzling
And I fuckin' cry everytime we're cuddling
Because I'm bein' beaten down by thoughts, they're gettin' loud
I wish I could just drown out the fuckin' sound
But I can't, and all these assholes are around
They make fun of me, I think my friends have had enough of me, but I won't let that get me down
Is what I always tell myself, but I end up on the ground
Crying my eyes out because of everything I've been put through
And I love this person so much, yeah, baby, I love you
And I feel an overwhelming feeling of sorrow when we say, "Goodbye"
And I love you so much, and I love when we cuddle in the night
Please, don't leave me here all alone
Baby, please, don't leave me here all on my own
I can't survive without you, baby, nah, I won't!
I need this to live or I'll succumb to all these thoughts I have
And I guess it's not your fault, it's all on my mom and my dad (Yeah)

[Verse 2 MdrnStNick]
All the lonely roads that I've trodden through
All the painful moments that I've felt too
All the weary nights spent wept to sleep
They all made who I was meant to be
But what about the ones who don't have my happy ending?
All the ones who don't find love or their life's calling?
I know life's hard, I've wanted it to end
But what about the ones with those thoughts right this sec?
I don't know your struggles, all the hurt you've felt
I can't heal it at all, or make your iced heart melt
All I know is press on, take it one more day
I can promise it'll get better, just stop and say
"That lie isn't true, that pain will heal"
"That loss can be found, that hole can be filled"
"I may not be the best, but I sure ain't the last"
"I'm worthy of love, dignity, and respect"
And I know you'll find it, just take sec and see
That both God and I love you, unconditionally
I know you may not care, I know you may be scarred
But I can bet you won't when you step too far
I know you won't just be when the will is barred
If you don't leave it be then you'll stay charred
You'll forever be in pain, like I almost was
So for you, let me be your ear, shoulder, or hug
That's all I can say, that I've found the Way
But maybe I can be the light to your darkened days

[Verse 3: Jermainious Cole]
They think they can break me
They think they can shake me
But I will not budge because they did not make me
I don't care if they try to hate me and try to ban me too
Now people we looked up to are getting hit with the MeToo
But it's time to watch this stuff die out, like the people my friends shot
You didn't think I had been like that, I bet you didn't know that I didn't trust them
It's hard to trust a person when you've been switched up on multiple times
Just because you decided to speak on your faith, say what was right, be yourself
Just wanted to trust, now you don't show mercy to these people who hate for fun
Was kept not being able to be yourself, how fun, now you want to grab a gun
And aim it both ways cause if they go, you go too, that type of struggle
But I'm okay now, I don't struggle like that now, wanna know why
Because I know God still loves me as he does everyone else around me

[Interlude: Encognito]
Sorry I took long
(Back in the mix)
Should've noticed it before

[Verse 4: Encognito & Encognito (Spoken)]
Sometimes I feel like listening to happy songs when I feel like I'm not
I listen to sad songs when I'm content
It's better than following people heading where it's hot
The second I make amends is when I am ready for someone to break it, did I mess it up, you know what I meant
What I mean is I can't trust a soul
I walk alone, so I'll never fold (Huh?)
I don't think they heard me
What I mean is I can't trust a soul
I walk alone, so I'll never fold
Sometimes I feel like everyone hates me
Probably cause I'm not like them, must be driving them crazy (Facts!)
You probably could never stand the the things I've seen
I think you would break down and flee
Ever seen someone without a face
Ever seen someone try and cut the head of a person who already met their fate
Wait, his head wasn't fully cut off
It was kinda weird
And- I'm sorry I took so long
But I'm pretty sure when you can fit in with anyone that means you really don't
And I'm pretty sure that I'm pretty sure no one's in my boat
And if there is someone, then I guess we're just drifting
I don't think you're listening
I believe in God but I still feel alone
I have no need for the crap you find on phones
You tell me
What do you need
It's probably what you want
And what it is I want
Is what I need
What I need is some people to shut up
I can get hate but hate back (Shut up!)
I can't be me, but I can't be you, huh? (Shut up!)
I think you should get hate back (SHUT UP!)
Who cares bout how others see you, raise your hand
I bet that's everyone, and
I could yell "Christ Gang!" but I can't do you
I could tell someone I'm a Christian, but I can't do you
I could say that friends aren't really there for you and are wanting something out of it
I could say that they're all not permanent from what I've seen
What of it
I can't do you, I don't know you, but I already hate you
What's your life like, is it close to Christlike, ain't that what I'm like
No it ain't, I feel as if I'll never belong, if you do, you a fool
There ain't no way to fit in when you walk with the light (Glo time)
I can't do you, I can't do you, I can't do you
I don't need one sixteen
I can't do you
I try my best not to be ashamed, Romans 1:16
I don't have people close to me
It's hard to see what path is narrow or wide, I need someone to show me
But I feel as if I need nobody (Can't do you)
Heh, maybe I do (Out of the mix)