Tryin, I Really Am

[Verse 1]
How many times can a heart skip a beat?
Does it hiccup to the blood curdling screams?
Is it natural to be six feet deep?
Not quite dead and not quite living, no humanity

[Chorus]
Trying, I really am
Can't wrap my head around why
There's frostbite in my hands
This summer, mid July
Trying, I really am
To find the pulse in my veins
I'm over it, ampersand
Just need the space to feel again

[Verse 2]
I don't know why I feel numb as of late
Can't feel my bones fracturing under the weight
Of byproducts of chemical decay
Resentment decompose, spite rotting away

[Chorus]
Trying, I really am
Can't wrap my head around why
There's frostbite in my hands
This summer, mid July
Trying, I really am
To find the pulse in my veins
I'm over it, ampersand
Just need the space to feel again

[Verse 3]
Sink your teeth and breach the skin
I can't lose if no one wins
Can't see why if I just gouge my eyes
Malice thrives where all compassion dies

[Bridge]
I'm trying, I really am
I'm trying, I really am

[Chorus]
Trying, I really am
Can't wrap my head around why
There's frostbite in my hands
This summer, mid July
Trying, I really am
To find the pulse in my veins
I'm over it, ampersand
Just need the space to feel again