Truth

What was the word for some big illusion?
I could've made the same conversation up twice
In my mind
Just like a kid, I crave your attention
Look what I did, the mess in the kitchen is mine
Give me kisses when I try

Somewhere in my head, somewhere, I forget that I'm there
Look at me and say, 'I mean everything, I'm there for you'

I've been amazed you still have my number
Was that a phase? I know what suspicion looks like
And I shouldn't givе advice to you just cuz I want you

I know this could be all in my mind

Somewhеre in my head, somewhere, I forget that I'm there
Look at me and say, 'I mean everything I've said'
Somewhere in my head, somewhere, I forget that I'm there
Look at me and say, 'I mean everything I've said, truth'

What was the word?