Trust Me

[Verse 1]
And I'm in love with the restless sea
I hate what I have changed in me
My mom sees the best in me
But my brother, he can't escape, no peace

My dad can't erase it, no
My blood mixed with alcohol
My blood stains the crackin' floor
Under pressure of the chemicals

Emotional deep inside my brain
Railin' on me like crack cocaine
Hittin' on me like a fast train
Or a fast car, I can't see through the pain

For a second I think I'm dyin'
For a year I spend my days tryin'
I tried so hard to fight it
But I shake so hard, so hard every time

And I tried so hard to take your fears
To shield you from your acid tears
I couldn't make it all disappear
I wasn't strong and now you can't come back here

It was wrong for the both of us
Just like it was when we were growin' up
Now I'm sittin' here, hardly holdin' up
Bucket in my hands I'm throwin' up
Trust me

[Chorus]
I'll never trust you again
We were never even really friends
I'll leave when you stop being useful
'Cause, hey, that's what I'm used to

Thanks for provin' me right
I cast the blame and you took a bite, yeah
And now I'm justified
For makin' a game out of your life, yeah

[Verse 2]
I'm broken again, broken again, broken again
And now that you're reelin' in
Your pessimism was my perfect sin
Your cannibalism was my slip

I ain't sayin' what I did wasn't fucked up
In fact, throw away the key and lock up
But if you're tellin' yourself you didn't have a hand in it, then fuck
You're better off handcuffed

"I'm glad that I know what kind of person you are
So I don't have to deal with it when I give you my heart"
Please, you were never even plannin' that far
Too deeply self-prisoned with platinum bars

You created this reality
And you're alone now-- where you've always wanted to be
You and me was your greatest masterpiece
My fault was your cake, your icing, and your cherry

We weren't born with it
We were trapped in this cage
This crusade on our brains made us clinically insane
But the madness ensued
Ripped and slashed and unglued
And where we are is too far to properly continue

Fuck this rap, fuck this song
Fuck your rights, fuck my wrongs, fuck it all
Fuck our history, we ain't got one
Fuck your misery, at least you got someone

[Chorus]
I'll never trust you again
We were never even really friends
I'll leave when you stop being useful
'Cause, hey, that's what I'm used to

Thanks for provin' me right
I cast the blame and you took a bite, yeah
And now I'm justified
For makin' a game out of your life, yeah

[Bridge]
You never understood
But then, neither did I
Hell, I barely even tried!
I was so caught up in what I wanted you to be
I destroyed everything and left it in pieces
Tried to pick 'em up but it was all in pieces
I guess the only thing left to say is I'm sorry

I'm not sorry for what went down, but for not trying to understand
For thinking, "All my problems are just some tragic part of who I am"
For believing them when they called you a monster
You're a person, not a project, and I wish I didn't falter

And I wish it didn't have to end so violently that night
And I wish that you'd call me and read me "Hitchhiker's" one more time
And I know by now you've probably forgotten I existed
And if you haven't I know that you'll hate these songs if you ever listen, but I

[Chorus]
I'll never trust you again
We were never even really friends
I'll leave when you stop being useful
'Cause, hey, that's what I'm used to

Thanks for provin' me right
I cast the blame and you took a bite, yeah
And now I'm justified
For makin' a game out of your life, yeah