​trust issues / gaslighting

[Verse 1]
Yeah, I'm up, but I always feel down
When these people always run about
Tryna talk to me, but they don't know how it really be
Yeah, I'm closed up in my circle
Kept to myself, but it don't always work though
I always try to keep a positive mental
But it don't work, and this stress got me pressured
People just wanna see you with the rest
But when you up now, got a lot of yes men in the fest
I can't seem to get to you
That we not friends and try something new
I can't seem to hold it back, when you try to fit in
And you lackin' the fact that your there to call me twin
Yeah, just say what you really mean
'Cause you holdin' back got me feelin'
Like I'm living in a dream

[Bridge]
Yeah, I really hate this feelin'
When your all alone pushed up to the ceiling
People never got my back now (Never got my back now)
Now I'm twenty-two and people actin' like a bot now

[Verse 2]
Lately, I just wanna know how you doing?
But you seem to act strange, never know what you brewin'
Yeah, I really hate this distance (Really hate this distance)
Wish I find a way to fix this
So I'm always tryna make new friends
But it never seem to last
Yeah, people on my dick, next day they turn and laugh
Like, what did I really do?
To deserve this hate, and your crossed through
You only cared 'bout what you gained
All this time, you've been using me
I put my heart, on my sleeves
Realize that you're not the one for me, yeah
I'm young and stupid learning things, yeah
Can't believe what you did to me, yeah
I'm not sad
But disappointed in me, yeah

[Outro]
But I really do love him, it's shit like-
It's just crazy bruh
Life goes on and shit bruh
You know what I'm sayin' like?