Trust Issues

(Chorus)
I got trust issues
So you gotta make me trust in you
There's a lot of things that you do
But I still got trust issues
Show me I should believe in you
No one does things like you do
But I still got trust issues

(verse 1)
I try to fade the memories
I force them to go away
But they come back when I'm happy
Can't they just leave me?
I'm traumatized from the things people have done
It's not your fault if I get scared and run
I'm not good at accepting love
Especially when I don't think I'm enough
Got voices in my head that won't shut up
I keep asking myself "what did I do?"
To deserve this torture, all I want is you
But I'm afraid things will end faster than they started
You try to have hope, but you never know what's gonna happen
One day you'll wake up and see someone else
Then you'll leave me cause their better than myself
Then I'll be upset all over again
You never know what could happen
What could happen

(pre-chorus)
Don't treat me like they do
I don't wanna be hurt again
I wanna trust you
But I'm afraid I'll be hurt
So

(Chorus)
I got trust issues
So you gotta make me trust in you
There's a lot of things that you do
But I still got trust issues
Show me I should believe in you
No one does things like you do
But I still got trust issues
So prove that I mean something to you

(verse 2)
Most guys only go after on thing
Then they break our hearts and do it again
Not saying all guys, but all the ones I feel in love with
Most people question how can this girl rap
I mean really she can barely even stand
She issues filling her head
So how can she say them?
They treat me like I'm special or fragile
Like saying the wrong thing will make me have a breakdown
But that only happens sometimes
But when it does, I try to hide
So no one knows I hurt inside
And I'm crying over someone who will never be mine
Again
But it's worse when I go home when my dad is there
Everything I do makes me scared
Like he's gonna yell at me for just existing
I wouldn't doubt it, he's done it before
That's why I stay in my room and close my door
I leave when I'm called but don't talk much
It's kinda lonely when you don't feel loved
So

(pre-chorus)
Don't treat me like they do
I don't wanna be hurt again
I wanna trust you
But I'm afraid I'll be hurt
So

(Chorus)
I got trust issues
So you gotta make me trust in you
There's a lot of things that you do
But I still got trust issues
Show me I should believe in you
No one does things like you do
But I still got trust issues
So prove that I mean something to you

(verse 3)
I know this is a long song but it's cause I have so much to say
I always overthink minute by minute, day by day
So thoughts fill my head, and when I write
They just pour out, it's kinda nice
It gives me something to write about
To share with everyone and make them realize
That people hurt more than you see, look on the inside
The smallest things make me go insane
Maybe someone else might feel the same
That is my goal to make people think
To make them realize that we aren't perfect
Were expected to act like adults but we're treated like little kids
Does anyone understand the pain we all live with
Most of us teens are afraid to go home
But even more afraid to go to school cause of the people
And most want to commit suicide
Some think that sleeping gives them a break from society
But they wish they never woke up, it'd be amazing
I will admit that I have those thoughts too
But I have to survive, I'll make it thought
A war that we think we can't win
But all these fears come back to haunt us again

(pre-chorus)
Don't treat me like they do
I don't wanna be hurt again
I wanna trust you
But I'm afraid I'll be hurt
So

(Chorus)
I got trust issues
So you gotta make me trust in you
There's a lot of things that you do
But I still got trust issues
Show me I should believe in you
No one does things like you do
But I still got trust issues
So prove that I mean something to you