Trust Is A Word

How can I explain this
SO YOU KNOW
That I was never honest
Did it ever show?
I'm a master of disguise
Do I burn you up?
Or tear you down?
Either way I shut you out
So LET IT GO
Without a sound
One way trip you're headed down
How can I explain this so it hurts?
I did my best to love you (lie)
But it never worked
Have I BLED this moment dry?
Used to be something so special (you)
Used to be something that made me ME
No i'm not sure who I am anymore
No i'm not sure (is that wrong?)