Troubled Waters

[Chorus x3: JacQuan & Parker]
All by myself…
[LadyJ]
The only one can make it happen...
[JacQuan & Parker]
I must prevail...
[LadyJ]
Take it all with grace and passion

[Verse 1: LadyJ]
I am the one that will win
The only one that took it in
I am the one that embraces the action
My scores has always been a 10
I can make up for my friends
I can take on their loose ends
I understand the team is the dream
And you sacrifice things just to win

I already know that I have what it takes
To rewrite and rectify their ignorant mistakes
I am strong enough to take on their weight
They cannot handle it and that’s OK
I see the strength in them, I know one day
They will work out issues
I believe what they say
Couldn’t ever see them leaving this place
Didn’t ever think they needed their space

Now I’m chasing as they're leaving away
And I gave them so much of myself to be brave
Now I’m not whole anymore, I am cold
And I have nothing left but regrets and mistakes
They say that you live and you learn
But nothing's learned if you don’t live
That took a turn
I can’t return
I float down to Hell
In my mental cell
All by myself...

[Chorus: JacQuan & Parker]
All by myself...
[LadyJ]
What has happened to my image?
[JacQuan & Parker]
All by myself...
[LadyJ]
Must escape this lonely prison...
[JacQuan & Parker]
All by myself...
[LadyJ]
What has happened to my image?
[JacQuan & Parker]
All by myself...
[LadyJ]
Can I ever be forgiven?
[JacQuan & Parker]
All by myself...
[LadyJ]
What has happened to my image?
[JacQuan & Parker]
All by myself...
[LadyJ]
Maybe I deserve this sentence...

[Verse 2: LadyJ]
I know if I was there
I could still be your solitaire
But I’m not, I’m so stuck
Deep in darkness I can’t get up
But is this why you run?
'Cause I am not worthy
'Cause I don’t deserve you!
'Cause I failed to love you!
'Cause I’m suck at service!
'Cause I’m weak and worthless!
'Cause I’m seeking purpose!
'Cause...!

[Monologue: LadyJ]
I’ve sacrificed so much! I did so much for you...
And...you didn’t do anything!
Did I do it all this for nothing?
Am I really going to be alone forever??
NOOOOOOOO!!!
[cries]

[Chorus: JacQuan & Parker]
All by myself...
All by myself...
All by myself...
[J screaming and suffering in between]

[Verse 3: LadyJ]
I did not fucking deserve this!
No one worries 'cause they say I’m so strong
But then they feel weakened and worthless
I ran to their side, never dropping the ball
Just cause I’m strong
Doesn’t mean I’m
Immune to falling down to darkness at all
Then I go off, now you are sorry
Keep ya feeble ass apologies, dog!
I am done being your savior
I am done making excuses for fucked up behavior
I am done drowning in sadness
I am done keeping my mind from unleashing this madness
I’ll actually attack you
You will suffer my wrath
I am not holding back
I will break you in half
You lost out on my love
It’s yourself you will hate
I laugh at this fact, cause you know it’s too late

I laugh at the fact cause you know it’s too late
I laugh at the fact cause you know it’s too late
I'm gonna make your life a living hell
I’m only now thinking about myself
I’ve waited for years all you did was fail
I’ll wrangle your body from teeth to nail

Impale through your skull, ripping every lil hair
Burning your flesh till it’s bare
Feeling the bliss as I rip out your spine and you yell
Only see blood and despair
Fuck you while slitting your throat as you die underneath
Ecstasy rise as your body depletes
Your moans are insane as you’re groaning in pain
And for once the female won’t leave blood on the sheets,....
I’ll never be free
I’ll ruin their lives tryna to satisfy anger
But still won’t succeed
I am a shell, I am not well, I’ll take my life, In my own hell, all by myself...