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Time to write another song now
Reach my hand into my chest and pull my fucking heart out
That's why it's hard for me sometimes to get it all out
You hear every word but you don't know what I'm talking bout

Blood, sweat, tears, pain, ain't no ink involved
I remember when you made me think that we could call
To you it's just a talk but for me it was all
That I fucking needed, I just wanted to feel needed

But you left me broken, why am I so fucking hopeless?
I can't ever cope with what it is that I should cope with
I can see the wound but Imma leave it fucking open
Cause if I closed it I nеver would of wrote this

I fucking need this, it's all I'm good at
So fucking feed it, just hit me whеre my heart at
I fell in love with what I hate because it drives me
When I need inspiration I just think bout when you lied to me

Think bout when you stole from me, think bout when you cheated
Think bout when you ghosted me, think bout all your treason
Think bout where I'm at now, think bout how I'm better
I say I don't care now but we both know better

If I let this go will I ever make a better song?
Somethings wrong, I don't think that I will ever
Get it out my head that if I'm happy I won't ever
Make another song, I'm creative cause I'm bitter

I threw you aside, that's the only time I littered
I just wanna die but I ain't no fucking quitter
I get fucking scared to the point where I get jitters
Somethings in my wall, I don't want it to get nearer

My hearts made of paper and your words are made of scissors
I went in to save her, I came out with all these blisters
I was never safer than I was when I was with her
All that love I gave her to the point where I was withered

You're so cold it makes me hot, we're stuck inside a twister
There's fish in the sea but I don't wanna be a fisher
I barely use hooks cause I don't want you to remember
That I only started making songs because I missed her

I know it's pathetic but I don't regret it
My only other option was a bullet where my head is