Trauma (Shoto Rap)

[Verse 1: Nicky Trakks]
How come my heart be so cold, but your actions got me heated
I don't think I could forgive you, even if you really mean it
Even if you really mean it, I don't see no point in speaking
See these scars above my face, they're not the reason that we're beefing
She's the reason I can't sleep, I stay awake, afraid of dreaming
I see her face, and I can't take it, then inside I get to screaming
I can't erase what was done, I can only try to treat it
I can only be the greatest if I conquer all my demons

I don't know how long I can take it, but these conversations won't erase the problems you created
Lately, I've been anxious
I've gotta practice on my patients
You turned my mom into a patient
Now you got me thinkin' crazy, I should prolly try to face him
That's real

[Chorus: Sailorurlove]
Some scars don't fade away with time
And I know, your pride gets in the way of your mind
I wish that I could forget the trauma that you've caused
The torment, you never chose to pause
I'm fine with being the flame you despise
But for her, I'm cold as ice

[Verse 2: The Kevin Bennett]
It's morning now, when my eyes are opening
Same routine, with that same mentality
Same old coping, with the same old struggles
Here I am, yeah, I'm all alone
But I invite the cold
That's who I am, an Arctic human, I let the cold frost, bite the soul

Y'all probably would've froze by now
But they don't wanna know my power
I'll go right now
Turn this shit upside down
Set fire to a whole damn town, 'till it burnt to the ground
Don't fuck around and find out

With the man of my capability's
Stayin' chilly, and cranking up degrees
Hot and cold, like Katy Perry means

What a scary scene
Mother, baring me
All my parents did was fucking bury me
How embarrassing, I'll never bare to see the day of light, until they fucking bury me
Wasn't fair to be abused, I do- do the things
That undo -do the past doings
Everybody still do it for a rude awakening
Until then, I'ma need some clarity, yeah

[Chorus: Sailorurlove]
Some scars don't fade away with time
And I know, your pride gets in the way of your mind
I wish that I could forget the trauma that you've caused
The torment, you never chose to pause
I'm fine with being the flame you despise
But for her, I'm cold as ice